The haunting of my brain.

It all started late. I was late, the kids were late and the dog would not get out of bed. The same thing happens every year. I make plans, lists and comments and still I am behind. Way behind. To behind to catch up to where I want to be.

I was having morning coffee with the boss and she said something that resonated with me. "why do we put such pressures on ourselves" You know what, I don't know. I know that I have an asperational view on life. Not for more money, fame or fortune but for a clean house, tidy cupboards, washed floors, meal plans and clean windows.

I have been spending more time inside my brain trying to work out how I can achieve these dream goals. All I can figure out is the crazy amount of work that I will have to do, then I get depressed, then I want to go to bed without brushing my teeth or letting the dogs out for a pee.

So, you ask, dear reader, what is she going to do? Will she go to bed or will she put on a load of laundry and drink a cup of tea?

The laundry won and so did the cup of tea and I will be staying up just that much longer to get a few little things done.

And let the dogs out.

 

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DAY 26 OF 365 - 52

Well, I would say that was an epic fail. Start a 365 post about getting more planning and routines in my life and don't post for 26 days. That is almost a month. 

Jumping up and jumping in.

I have been using my timer to get more done. Last Sunday I started and finished a page turner book and removed 2 bags of weeds from my garden. I spent 5 hours doing the " work for 15 minutes, rest for 15 minutes" routine. Yup, it works and I used it again to get some laundry done. Though it was more like 45 minutes of reading, 15 minutes of flipping the laundry, folding the laundry and putting the load of laundry away.

I will not let my natural inclination to do nothing stop the forward push. Change is in the air and change is on my mind.

Thursday, Day 1 of 365 - 52

Today is supposed to be plans and routines that have worked.
Well it is Day 1 and I have fallen off the cleaning wagon but...
I did walk 5 km this morning as I do every (or almost every weekday morning, more for my waistline then the dogs health) So that routine works.
I did flip the laundry before my walk but I did not fold or put away the clean clothes. So I guess that only half worked and the family will continue fishing for clean underwear in the overflowing baskets.

This is Cindy, one of the two lovely ladies I walk with.

You can see the state of my main floor along with all the clean laundry spread out on the diningroom table.

Today  The Flylady says we are in Zone 2, The Kitchen. Well I was in my kitchen too. Making coffee and lunches. Trying to multitask before leaving the house to multitask at work. But back to the kitchen. I do not have a clean and shiny sink every night. There I said it out loud. I have to work on this routine, and work on the invisible  people who leave dirty dishes in the sink and not in the dishwasher. I will find you, you can not hide forever. You will get hungry.

The Time Has Come the Walrus Said

The times they are a changing.

I am entering into middle age. In two months I will be 51. Now, no longer a newly minted middle age woman. The mother of four and I have kept my original Husband and no I am not trading him in anytime soon.

Events have pushed me to face the need for change.

         My kids are getting older, their needs are different. High school, college and university students live very different lives to those in diapers, junior and middle school. I need to move them forward, to be better workers at school, in the house and at their jobs. Changes to chore expectations have to be made, both my actions and their actions.

         I am tired of my cooking – dinner is uninspired and food shopping is boring, boring, boring. My vegetable garden is bland– except for my herbs. I love fresh herbs on everything.

         We bought our house as a fixer-upper, well it has been seven years and it still needs fixing. I am not going for the deco-porn look or the monster home on our street, I just want the little jobs finished. Baseboards replace, quarter round installed. Broken glass repaired. Caulking around the windows. You get the picture.

         Housework. I have never been very good at cleaning. I always seem to leave a few things undone for days, okay for weeks, I know of a couple that have been undone for years. I want to change. I want to jump back onto the Flylady’s ( flylady.net ) band wagon, get my routines down, get my control journal up and get my laundry moving.

         My body. This is the one area that I am feeling comfortable in. Over the last three years I have lost and kept off thirty pounds. I want to continue to move. Make more yoga time. Reduce my wine intake and up my healthy food. I will add the ups and downs of epilepsy as  my youngest daughter is newly diagnosed.

         My craft – I knit, I knit lace, I lurk on all those amazing sites wishing, hoping and wanting. I will make my sweater this year.  The whens, whats and wherefores have to be planned out.

Amazing – that gives me 6 areas to explore every week. What a treat. Now I have to plan just a little bit. As we all know “Fail to plan, plan to fail.”

Here is the basic layout - I am thinking of doing a 365 - 52, I like a day off a week. 

Monday - Housework/Not just mine

Tuesday -  Food/Shopping/Planning /Recipes

Wednesday - My Body/Epilepsy

Thursday - Plans and Routines what has work/not. 

               The small changes we put in place

Friday - Fun/ Knitting/ What I found around the web/Pictures

Saturday - The house, small changes, big moves

There, I have put together a plan. A plan I can start with, we all know it will be tweaked, twisted and teased over the next year.

Stay with me as I learn to blog and make the small changes that lead to big changes. 

Kate

Money, Time, Home

Is this how you feel stuck inside?  You can see the beautiful blue sky but the inside world is obstructing your view? And every time you look out the window the material world reminds you why you work – to pay the bills. To keep up with the Jones and the Guptas?

I don’t have a Utopian dream of never working, I like my work. I know myself well enough to know I would go crazy stuck at home – I did go crazy when the kids were little and work was my release.

Yesterday I wanted the choice to stay home. To know that our finances all able to handle me not working a few days a month.

I am Making A Change

I am making a change. A change in attitude, a change in style, a change in thought, a change in work.

I am making a change in me.

For months, no years I have been following a number of  blogs trying to inspire myself into moving forward.

I have been a follower of    flylady.net  for years and years. She has helped me keep the tide line down. The laundry still gets out of hand and my sink does not get shined every day but the house is better.

Now I am searching for more. More from  me. More from my life.

12 in 2012

Yup, I am jumping in.

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